Today was bittersweet. Today I missed Margaret so much. She should have gotten this card. She should be on the receiving end of Will and Lucy’s hugs. This is the bitter. That she is not here. That sometimes I secretly feel guilty and unworthy of being their parent now. How did I deserve them?
There is so much sweet that I have to recognize though. I have been gifted with the joy of helping to raise two crazy and amazing little people. This card from Lucy brought tears to my eyes.
It’s not easy. I honestly never thought I would have kids. My life is not what I had imagined. It’s HARD to be a parent. Yet each night when I go to write my one line in my happiness journal it’s almost always something about the kids.